Do you ever feel like there is so much you want to do in your life that you end up just sitting there thinking about it… and thinking about it… and thinking about it. Then you tell yourself that if you spent half the time DOING it as you did in THINKING about it, you’d surely be on your way to getting some of it done.
There are so many books I want to read, so many ideas I have for writing, so much I want to organize, so many workouts I want to do, so many people I want to see and talk with, so much time I want to spend on my own growth and purpose, so many games I want to play (ahem, Scramble with Friends is ridiculously addicting), and so many things I want to do with my sweet family. The list goes on and on. This list is so long and full of purpose that I actually spend much of my time admiring all the awesome things on it and then I feel tired from the anticipation of it all.
I get stuck. I feel exhausted.
So, instead of conquering the list, I end up making a plan to catch up with friends and classes on the computer for a few minutes, read a couple of pages in a book, and then I fall asleep. I wake up the next morning and it starts all over. Of course, most days I am working and feel drained by the time I get home and sometimes don’t even have the energy to think of all the awesome things that will fill my life. I simply fulfill my nightly duties and go to bed. Thinking about all those amazing things that will surely fill my days gets a titch overwhelming, I suppose. The picture of what my life will look like tomorrow, next week, next month, and next year occupies my mind very successfully. You know what? If perseverating on this were a “paying job”, I would surely be an incredibly successful CEO!
As I’m feeling stuck, overwhelmed, excited, and stressed, I get the following message from Echo Bodine today, “ONE DAY AT A TIME KIRSTEN. TRUST YOUR INNER VOICE TO HAVE YOUR BACK ALWAYS. FEEL THE PEACEFULNESS OF LIVING BY YOUR INNER VOICE. PLEEEEEEEZE????”
And yes, it was typed in ALL CAPITAL LETTERS just as it is pasted here. Boy, did I get the message alright! The funny part is that she was responding to a message that I left about a life change that is on my horizon but her words resonated much deeper. She has talked about using her inner voice to plan her day, checking in with it all the time to create the flow that IS her life. I forget sometimes that “I” am much more than my own mind and the jibber jabber that occupies my thoughts (which can surely be self defeating). I preach about using my intuition, but it seems that I fail to check in when it could be the most helpful and soothing for me.
”The intuitive mind is a sacred gift and the rational mind is a faithful servant. We have created a society that honors the servant and has forgotten the gift.” -Albert Einstein
Relying on intuition is a process and today I am thankful for messages that come… AT. THE. PERFECT. TIME. Instead of obsessing about all the things I want to do, I will simply check in with my inner voice to find out what I should be doing and then, HELL, I’m actually just going to DO IT! Turning something that has felt so difficult into something that feels more natural and easy lifts a tremendous amount of weight off my shoulders. Day by day, moment by moment. Thankful for messages that come at exactly the right time. That’s where I’m at today.